From A Middle Class Girl’s Perspective

Having been raised by parents with conservative political views and are part of the military, you couldn’t blame me if my own views point closer to the right. Democracy works. You can’t blame everything on the government. The Philippines is poor because most Filipinos are lazy. If you work hard enough, you will succeed. The American dream.

And I still tell myself that from time to time. Why are all these people rallying for higher state subsidy? Surely, if they really wanted to study, they could just apply for scholarships. Di lang naman UP ang school sa Pilipinas. The tuition fee in PUP is much cheaper, last I heard. Plus, what they’re arguing is that the government spends too much in military and I personally take that as offensive. I don’t know if you guys heard or if you even care, but a lot of Air Force planes crashed recently, and some of the people that died are our friends. Pilots with a family, good people with cute kids, dying just because our country’s planes are less than second-rate. Heck, we can’t even afford to buy brand new planes. But I get it. How can they justify spending that much on guns and planes yet not cave when students ask for a little bit more for the budget on education?

Also, when you think about it, why DO we have to pay a hefty amount of money just to get quality education? The top schools in the Philippines are UP, ADMU, DLSU, and UST–we all know that only one of those are affordable and I’m using the word affordable really loosely here. And it’s not just in universities. My two cousins would almost cry and throw out a tantrum every time their dad would threaten them na if they don’t get high enough grades, they would be transferred to a public school because they say na pangit turo sa ganun. And how much is private school education? 45K-70K a year? I was lucky enough to get into a science high, but what about the others? They have to make tyaga sa 60 students per small classrooms and just one teacher, tas minsan wala pang baon kaya tatamarin na.

And it’s not just on education. Why do we have to live in a world where the elites spend $300 on a single pair of shoe while somewhere out there, some kid has to endure the blisters on his feet because he can’t afford to buy new slippers? How can Louis Vuitton charge $650 for those monogrammed handbags of theirs when they’re not even really that cute and are nothing but a status symbol, while somewhere out there, men are left to die because they can’t pay for their hospital services?

I can always give you stories of hope and inspiration, like how my manicurist’s children are doing well at school and one is graduating. Or how Ate Lina, after years and years of trying, praying, and going through dozens and dozens of albularyos just to have a kid now finally has a 5-year-old named Mika and she is all sorts of dapper. But what about the others who aren’t so lucky? What about the others who have to face the harsh reality of life everyday?

You couldn’t blame me if my views point a little close to the right, but having a best friend whose face showed every color of disappointment when I didn’t finish my meal that one time makes you wonder–is life really THAT unfair? We are all taught that if we work hard enough, we will succeed, but is that still true? Do all men really have equal chances at a richer and fuller life or is that all a lie meant to blind us from the fact that the world we currently live in is a terrible one? Is there something wrong with the people or is it time to change the system? Am I just too hopeful to believe that the world could be a better place? When will the story of humanity have a happy ending?

I’m just 19, I’m still allowed to feel warm and fuzzy then talk about it on the intarwebz

The world is probably tired of hearing this, but I am at my happiest when I’m with you. And although that sounds co-dependent, cheesy, teenager-ish, or whatever term cynics has come up with to replace the word love, I don’t care. Being with you is the most soothing, fulfilling, tears-of-joy-inducing thing in the world.

This is probably the most often told lie in the whole of the universe, but I really do mean it when I say that you have showed me the true meaning of love. I have been in relationships before and you’ve had your fair share, too, but I believe our sh*t is legit. You made me see the thin line between being in love with the feeling of being in love and actually being head over heels, makes you happy with every gesture, just stares can mean a thousand words, in love.

You make my heart flip when you look at me, really look at me, and it makes me want to squish you and hug you on the spot, as if you’re a real life teddy bear that reciprocates the love I give. Also, I used to think that weak knees and smiles that go from ear to ear were just exaggerations that writers made up to put us normal people in misery and hopelessness as we go for and ultimately fail in the quest of finding fairytale love, but they really do happen. I always feel like melting whenever we stop whatever we are doing just so you can tell me you love me. And I can still hear your voice when you said, “Di naman kita iiwan e.”

Things aren’t always gonna be rainbows and butterflies in relationships, everyone knows that. But when things do suck, I just think of you and that first time you went to my house and came with a box of Nerds. I think of the opening line from Such Great Heights, “I’m thinking it’s a sign that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images and when we kiss they’re perfectly aligned,” because we have that. Just replace freckels with moles. (Mehehe.) I think of when we to say goodbye and just can’t. I think of all our hugs and neither of us is willing to let go so we end up slow dancing, and kissing, and then back to resting in each other’s arms.

Times are hard but what we have is one thing that I am not willing of giving up on. And I know I always say that if the time ever comes when you want out, I will respect it, writing this article made me realize one thing: You have no right to leave. We’re Sandy and Kirsten Cohen, Marshall and Lily–it is because of couples like us that people still believe in love. You wouldn’t want to crush humanity’s hope, right? Nope. I didn’t think so.

I love you. I can make this post as long as I want, but it all ends up to that one thing. I love you. And it’s the best feeling I have ever had.

We The Kings!

A post that’s more than a month overdue. Better late than never!

Opening act!

Judge a band on their live performances, one should.
Here’s to We the Kings and their cute crew members. :>
I promise myself that I would never become too much of a snob to hate We the Kings. Even with their annoying, bordering on Belieber level, fan girls.
Also, screw that girl who sang We’ll Be A Dream with them! Her notes were so off and Travis knew it! Ugh! Such a shame.

Let’s Bury Ourselves in Blankets and Think About Castles

Here is a mix that I made while enjoying nature’s AC, my comforter, and a cup of Milo with coffee. This is the third time I’ve made a mix but this is the first time I’m sharing it to people. Hihi. Enjoy! And here’s to the hopes that my taste isn’t horrible. You can download it here. 🙂 

  1. Such Great Heights – The Scene Aesthetic
  2. Burned By The Sun – Beulah
  3. A Song You Can Fall Asleep To – Funeral Home
  4. Daniel – Dia Frampton
  5. Fallen For You – Sheila Nicholls
  6. Piazza, New York Catcher – Belle & Sebastian
  7. Assassin – John Mayer
  8. Remembering Sunday – All Time Low
  9. Do You Still Love Me Like You Used To – Best Coast
  10. I Believe (When I Fall In Love It Will Be Forever) – Stevie Wonder
  11. Blindsided – Bon Iver
It would make me happy as fuck if you would click this. Just trying it out. :>